inspiration

irritating how i will come here with the inspiration to blog, and then lose the inspiration altogether so easily.

bluek.

work. 2.5 mths.

It has been 2.5mths since I started this new job.

Alhamdulillah.
It has been good so far. I'm still getting used to the different environment, the expectations, the new bosses etc.

One of the big issues I am facing is really learning to be more humble and to watch what I say and do esp with my older and more experienced colleagues.

But so far so good. Ppl are really helpful and maybe, I am more friendly and open. So that helps too. Bosses have reflected favourably with regard to work performance, so that's really awesome to hear. However, I am not sure if it is truly positive or they are just being kind to this young kid. :)


Totally separate topic. I am getting very tired of all the PAP bashing that is going on. Most of these ppl are just jumping on the bandwagon on the "exciting" point of view to take.

Sure, it's exciting to bash PAP and say that the opposition can do a better job. It's easy to be dissatisfied when you have been exposed to so much good. But I think many ppl fail to appreciate the good job that has been done, and they fail to understand that a country needs strong, intelligent people at its helm for a country to be run smoothly. Passion alone is not enough. The opposition is mostly filled with strong, passionate characters... but when push comes to shove, can they deliver?

I'm neither pro PAP or pro opposition. But I am pretty nervous about the outcome of this GE. This could rock Singapore.. and I am not sure if it would be for the better or for the worse.

faux-losophers

Suddenly facebook has become the platform for budding philosophers faux-losophers. Just look at all the facebook status updates. Hoho.

the end of freedom

Monday marks the end of my days of freedom. boo :(

so sad. i've enjoyed the days of do-nothings.

i will miss waking up not having to think about anything serious to do for the day and nice quiet peaceful mornings at the library.

ahh... new job, here i come!

"Are you happy?"

"Are you happy?"

:)

Did you know that the Woodlands Library's Reference Section is lovely on a rainy Monday morning... school's in session sans the exam period so it's nice, quiet and cozy.

Now it's back to work. I have close to 2 years' worth of emails and documents to organise for handover. :(

new year's weekend

I feel... down. I'm not sure why though. Maybe it's the Monday Blues + only Allah knws what?

Odd.

The highlight of my weekend was spending time with my current fav cousin! :D She is uber cute! If only she will take to other ppl. The kid cries everytime we try to carry her. so exclusive. bluek.


The downer of my weekend was crying during driving lesson. yes, I cried in the car, in the parallel parking lot. WITH my instructor next to me. I was stressed cuz i kept on messing up the parking. instructor was getting irritated. And at that moment, I kept on thinking about how pathetic i was. sighz.

It's a new year, but when you are working in an office, it doesn't feel any different. Very much unlike school where a new year actually symbolises a new semester, a new class etc.

it's just another day at the office.

I am not sure how to sum up 2010. I don't think it's fair to outrightly say if 2010 was a good or a bad year. But it was definitely a year with many challenges... and I can see many more challenges to come.

Uniquely though, 2010 was the year when my ego took a hard beating. I never ever considered myself to be a person with a big ego... But as 2010 had showed me, I do have an ego. Quietly, I've kept this ego up for many2 years and in 2010, my ego took it's hardest beating yet. Not pleasant at all.

In 2010, I also learnt how to be an adult. To understand that words left unspoken or emotions left unshared do not necessarily mean that one has been defeated. I learnt to take things in stride and not crumble everytime failure comes my way. I learnt to "suck it up" as they say, and to move on. I learnt to rely on myself (emotionally & mentally) a little bit more. Physically, I think I am quite independent.

In 2011, i just want to do 4 things and not over promise myself as I had always done.

1. be punctual
2. walk more
3. love myself
4. trust myself

i believe the above 4 basics will enable me to improve myself in multiple aspects. insya'allah.

my new home

Hello and welcome to my new home. I reckon nobody reads my blog but oh well. I seem to like keeping one anyhow.

I thought i needed a change. A refresh, if you like.

I like my title - She's real.

but it only makes sense to me. It's actually part of a monologue in 500 Days of Summer when the character played by Matthew Gray Gubler is talking about his dream girlfriend and how is real girlfriend is actually much better than his dream "bodacious" girlfriend. Simply because.. "She's real". :)

Matthew Gray Gubler is my new favourtie Hollywood Actor. I've been watching Criminal Minds and how can one not like Dr Spencer Reid (the character he plays)?

Here he is in beard-man glory :



Here is how he looks on a typical Criminal Minds episode :



Very nerdy and endearing I think. You should try watching an episode and you'll see what I mean.

So that ends my virgin post in this new blog.

4 more days til the end of this year's Ramadhan. Have a good 4 days!